God Is Working Under My Radar

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  I am compelled to write about a deep paradigm shift that Is happening inside me that is in the realm of the experiences described in“The Cloud of Unknowing” because I am completely clueless about this inner work. All of God's work is happening under my  radar. until something triggers tears which seem to pop up from no where. No room for pride here. It is all about Him and He is probably keeping me in the dark because I would just get in the way.
Just typing these words brings tears to my eyes once again. I am not exactly sure what is going on in my spirit and soul but I do know that a huge shift is happening. When I stop for a moment , my shoulders sag as  warmth floods my heart AND my body. I am aware of God’s presence.

All I understand cognitively is that God is at work within me and I could break down and weep in gratitude for answered prayers. I have longed for such intimacy for decades,not days or weeks or even a few years but for a few decades I have worked on all the barriers to surrender, to trusting Him.  Now finally, He is in charge; He is at work hidden, mysterious, yet letting me know that I am on the brink of something  profoundly simple..finally letting Him love me.

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  1. Anonymous3:47 pm, October 24, 2013

    I hope your willingness to share these intimate thoughts and feeling helps others strive for more profound union with God.

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  2. Melanie Jean Juneau8:28 pm, October 24, 2013

    sigh..me too but I could not write anything else,

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