Back From The Edge

By The Communion Veil -

Many of us never know how close we have come to going to hell.  I found out today just how close I really came to being in the place of eternal torment.  Really close.

 When my husband was alive I had come back to the Catholic Church and I prayed my Rosary and loved to spend time with our Lord in the Blessed Sacrament.  After my husband died, everything hurt, and I mean everything.  Little things like going to the grocery store or watching t.v. was painful, and yes going to church was painful too because everywhere I was, I could feel his absence.  (He never went to church with me, but I prayed for him much there.) 

 Well, after his death, I was hurting so bad, that I just didn't care about anything, myself included.  All I wanted was to not hurt just for a little while.  I worked 50 hours a week, because I knew if I kept busy the 'demon' of sadness was kept at bay.  (There is a physical law that you can't think of two things at the same time, so the busier I was, the better.)  In addition to using work as a distraction from the pain I was experiencing, I also sought out unhealthy relationships with men.  I stepped into mortal sin.  I made every excuse for my behavior, saying that God would understand, and what I was doing wasn't so bad.  But I was lying, to myself.  The part of me that had loved to go to Mass and pray her Rosary in front of the Blessed Sacrament was screaming, "What are you doing! You know better!"  

 After three years of this I was beginning to wonder if this was going to be my entire life, and if I could continue to live in this constant pain.  Then one day, there was no extra work available and I took a day off.  I waited for the sadness to come.  It didn't.  I was quite surprised.  My demon must have been on an extended coffee break.   For the first time I knew something that I hadn't known in three years:  Hope.   For the first time I had hope that there could be a life without this constant sadness.  read more>

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  1. Eileen Frank11:56 pm, December 30, 2013

    Dear Adele, I want very much to "read more", but the link doesn't seem to be in place. Thank you so much (already) for this incredible testimony! eileen--

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  2. Melanie Jean Juneau12:02 am, December 31, 2013

    I emailed Adele the rest of her post so she can put it on her blog- I will email it to you eileen

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  3. Nancy Shuman12:51 pm, December 31, 2013

    I, too, went looking for the more. Adele, thank you for sharing this, and I wait to read the rest of your story.....

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    1. Melanie Jean Juneau1:06 pm, December 31, 2013

      I just sent you the entire article Nancy .I will do the same for anybody until Adele posts this article on her blog

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  4. The Communion Veil10:18 pm, December 31, 2013

    I am so thankful to Melanie. I was writing late last night, didn't know if I wanted to tell all of this, and put it in the wrong place. She save the whole blog for me! Thank you so much!! The link should work now.

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